4:35 am

What ridiculous hour is this?

The sky is already light, in a dull gray-blue overcast tone.  There is evidence of rain as the cobbles are looking wet and slick.  From what I can tell looking out my window at the other windows of homes up and down my street, no one else is up.  Good for you.  Sleep on and sleep well.  I’m totally envious.

I think I’ve been awake for at least an hour already.

In no particular order, here is a list of the things I need to do: Create one last screen for Hula, print, print Edinburgh Skyline in Hula exhibition colours, scan all Hula works and make four into postcard size prints to sell, order mounts for Hula works, take down artwork from I Heart Cafe, buy fabric for Hula and Wedding Invite Commission, print Wedding Commission artworks, make Wedding Commission artwork, scan and print into invites, order bespoke frame for Urban Outfitters chevron artwork, contact Dave at Edinburgh Copyshop to get a quote for postcard invites, do the same for man at ECA, buy frames for Hula artworks, confirm final details for UO exhibition and order postcard invites, download something I keep getting pestered about downloading but haven’t had time to download yet, re-install my printer to new laptop, book a hair appointment, disappoint friends by cancelling dates to meet in July or August, update website, update Etsy site, buy dog food, buy human food…uhm, I think that’s it.  I think that’s the list that has been keeping me awake.

Sometimes I get so desperate for a good night of sleep.  A full night of sleep.  One that doesn’t start with me lying there for an hour or more, wishing I was asleep by now and one that won’t have me up for hours in the middle, wishing I was asleep.  I’ve downloaded ‘Sleep’ apps to help lull me into a deep sleep.  They worked for a week but now I somehow seem to be immune.  Not sure what the answer is, but am sure it isn’t sleeping pills.  Maybe I just need to deal with my stress better or maybe this is just a particularly rough patch I’m going through.

Who knows.

I am thankful for the opportunities that have found me, or I found them.  I just wish they’d stop keeping me awake at night.

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